Journeys and battles

It's been a little over 4 months since I last wrote in this thing. Not much has changed, I'm still breastfeeding even though Silas has taken a bigger liking to the bottle lately while I'm at work. I knew this would happen, but I'm not going to let it bother me, he still gets the liquid gold every night and a lot on the weekends.
So my weight.....it's become this terrible issue with me. I've been on heart medicine for almost four years and just NOW found out that the biggest side effect of it is slowing your metabolism making it impossible to lose weight. So what's a girl to do? People say you don't like the way you look, so change it, well that just doesn't work. I've been working my butt off at this for 4 months and dieting as much as I can and cutting out a lot of things, and the scale just won't budge. Friends say I'm losing weight, and my jeans that were once tight are now becoming looser, so somewhere maybe something is going right, but my scale which I swear is broken won't budge from 190. I got on it yesterday and swore I'd never get on it again. It tells me the same damn crap every time. then the hubby goes and tells me it's broke, haha. I was told to go RAW/vegan diet. I really want to do this. Problem is, my hubby won't support me and or try to help me in anyway and it's totally nerveracking. It's like I'm fighting a battle I'm never going to win. I see the cardiologist the end of August, you bet your ass I will be talking to him about going off that frickin pill.
I've been a few more shoots lately and even have my first wedding coming up in a week. My self esteem is climbing which is amazing, now if I just get to losing these pounds, I think I would be completely happy with myself.
Well, I've gotta jet, gotta get to work to get that paycheck

Hula Hoops, Photo Contests, Blogging, and Boobies, Oh My!

I haven't done a real good job of keeping up with this silly thing. Been so busy lately with little ones. Perhaps the busiest I have ever been in my life. I started teaching myself to hula hoop last week. It's so much fun and I can't wait to get better at it. Unfortunately it's something that takes up a lot of time to get better at. I've mastered keeping it up, when the kids and the household allow it I can work on learning to do tricks with it. I hear it's a great weight loss tool as well. I hope I can start seeing some results soon as I have become extremely unhappy with my weight. but that topic is or another time, trying to keep this positive.
                   I started entering my photos into photo contests. I never did this before because of how negative I felt about my photos. I have this mindset that I'm not good enough or my photos aren't good enough to ever win something. But I'll never know until I try. I just want to keep improving my skills. A lot of people tell me they're amazing, but I think they could be better. I'm constantly looking at other people's work and comparing them, and think yeah mine stink.  I'm getting off the positivity topic again. I'll let ya know how it goes when the contest is over.
         My little Silas baby is going on 2 months old. in just 3 days to be exact and I've been breastfeeding him since day one. This is something I've very proud of myself for seeing as how I tried and failed with my other two children. The other two didn't make it past 2 weeks and I always hated myself for that. I'm being praised by everyone on what a good job I'm doing with it. It was so hard in the beginning and I had such a rough start and wanted to give up so many times, but I didn't, I stuck with it, and now it's something that I can't even see myself quitting, even when he turns one which was my ultimate goal. Breastfeeding has made me feel like I've improved and grown as a person. the old me would start something and the second it got to be too much, I'd give up. I didn't give up no matter how bad I wanted to. Like with the hooping, the old me would have probably given that up by now, but I haven't. I have this new found determination in me that wasn't there before. Now if only I could apply this to losing weight. That's the next challenge I wanna give mysel I suppose.
        I've got to be closing this for now. I'll try to keep up with this more as blogging is another thing on my list of things I want to keep doing. for now, peace out.


            

Timeline of a breastfed baby

At Birth:

• Given enough uninterrupted time skin-to-skin, your baby may move towards your breast and begin feeding without assistance.
• Most babies will nurse better at this time than they will for the next couple of days. Take advantage of this. “A full-term healthy newborn's instinct to breastfeed peaks about 20 to 30 minutes after birth if he is not drowsy from drugs or anesthesia given to his mother during labour and delivery” (La Leche League). Breastfeeding in the delivery room or the recovery room after a caesarean section lays the hormonal groundwork for your future supply of mature milk.
• If you experience greater than expected blood less while giving birth or have retained placenta inside your uterus after birth, this can lead to milk supply problems.
• Make sure that the midwives are aware that no formula is to be given to your baby unless strictly necessary and not without your consent.
• Your baby will be weighed following his birth.
• At the moment, and for the first few days after birth, your breasts are producing small quantities of colostrum (about 3-4 teaspoons daily). This is a concentrated clear yellow secretion which is high in protein, fat-soluble vitamins and minerals, as well as antibodies that protect your baby from bacterial and viral illnesses.
• Your newborn should not go longer than three hours between feedings. However you may find that he is very sleepy for the first few days and may not be interested in feeding. If this happens, you will need to wake him up. Undressing him and giving skin to skin contact will help wake him up and encourage him to feed.
• As you feed, the hormone oxytocin will help your uterus regain its tone after birth. This process also protects against excessive bleeding as you recover from childbirth. You may feel mild menstrual-like cramps whilst your uterus shrinks.

Day 1:

• Over the next 24 hours, your baby will begin to increase their hunger so they are having eight to twelve feedings per 24 hours. Many babies will feed more frequently than this and it may seem as though your baby is insatiable. This is because his stomach is so small it gets full very quickly and empties very quickly. Feeding frequently is also essential to build up your milk supply, so feed on demand rather than clock watching. To understand why your baby loves to suckle so often, read this beautifully written article by The Leaky Boob.
• Expect at least one or two wet nappies each day for the first few days after birth. It may be difficult to tell if a nappy is wet at this early stage, and it is normal to find pink crystal-like stains. If you are finding it difficult to judge if your baby’s nappy is wet, try putting a cotton ball in the nappy. When your baby urinates, the cotton ball will feel very wet.
• During this period, your baby’s mouth is acutely sensitive to any stimulation. A dummy, bottle, or sucking on your finger stimulates your baby’s mouth differently than your nipple. A newborn can easily become accustomed to this overstimulation of the tongue and hard palate. “Confusion can occur after just one exposure to a bottle or dummy” (Rubin. S). Therefore try to avoid or delay your baby’s contact with non-breast suckling until he is at least 6 weeks old.

Day 2:

• Most babies (whether breastfed or not) will have a small amount of jaundice, which starts after the first 24 hours of birth, reaches a peak around day 3 or 4, and then gradually fades over the next week.
• Frequent breastfeeding or pumping during these crucial days after birth awaken receptors sensitive to the hormone prolactin, a key player in the production of mature breast milk. If you become separated from your baby or your baby is unable to breastfeed, then pump your breasts with an electric breast pump every three hours. Pumping will send your body the message that you intend to breastfeed.
• You may have heard the mantra: "If it hurts, you're doing it wrong". Whilst agonising pain indicates a problem and should receive immediate attention, a moderate level of discomfort is normal during these early days as your breasts adjust to being suckled.

Day 4:

• By now you will have given your baby his first - and easiest - "immunisation" (antibody-rich colostrum) and helped to get his digestive system running smoothly.
• Your baby will be weighed again around this point, probably at home by your midwife. He may lose between 8 and 10 per cent of his original birth weight, as he adjusts to the sudden loss of his beloved placenta. Breastfed babies, who have consumed only teaspoons of colostrum, generally lose more than bottlefed babies (Murkoff. H). This weight loss is quite normal and expected, and you should see your baby start to gain weight soon. Remember also that in the first few days your baby may be weighed on several different sets of scales, which can all give subtly different readings.
• Also around this time, your milk will ‘come in’ and you may find yourself with the infamous ‘melons’ – aka your breasts swelling and becoming engorged and warm. Overabundance at this time is normal as your body learns to predict exactly how much milk your baby needs (note that if you had a c-section or are diabetic, your milk may come in a few days later than this). The engorgement usually settles down within 24-48 hours. As your baby starts to feed regularly your body will adapt to producing the right quantities of milk to nourish him. Engorgement is more uncomfortable for some women than for others and is typically more pronounced with first babies. With subsequent babies, engorgement may occur sooner. You may wish to apply chilled cabbage leaves to ease engorgement, however limit use to 20 minutes, no more than 3 times per day, as cabbage can decrease milk supply.
• It is important once your milk does come in that your breasts are regularly emptied in order to stimulate and ensure a good supply of milk. Also check your breasts for blocked ducts which are more likely to occur around this time. Try to avoid wearing a bra during this short engorgement phase if possible as a bra may compress your breasts and make swelling worse.
• The colour of your early milk will gradually shift from yellow to white. At the moment your creamy transitional milk contains high levels of fat, lactose, vitamins and more calories than the colostrum. The photo bellow shows colostrum on the left expressed on day 4, and on the right is breastmilk expressed on day 8.

• On average, feedings will take about 15-20 minutes on each side, although variations are normal. Your baby may take only one side at a time but it is wise to offer both.
• If you are not happy with how things are going, get help early. It's easier to correct problems early than to be re-building a milk supply next week. I recommend speaking over the phone with a La Leche League leader or attending a La Leche League meeting.
• As a result of your milk coming in your baby will start passing soft mustard-yellow stools (or orange and even green can be normal). At this stage at least one nappy per day should be full of poop and a mess to clean up. This ‘explosive poo’ phase will continue for a few more weeks.
• Whereas in the past few days it may have been difficult to tell that your baby’s nappy is wet, now his nappies should be undeniably wet, however the urine should have no strong colour or smell.
• You may now be feeding around a dozen times over 24 hours. Soon, you will build up to around 20 minutes per feed every two to four hours. Fear not. This frequency is only temporary, and as your milk supply increases and your baby gets bigger, the breaks between feedings will get longer.

Day 5:

• Feeling tired? Night time waking is the result of healthy biology. During these early weeks breastfed babies are hungrier at night than during the day. Your newborn’s hunger naturally corresponds to the rise of your breastfeeding hormones after midnight. These late-night feedings serve to help you to build a strong milk supply. Over time, the situation will evolve, and your baby will sleep more at night and be awake for more hours during the day.
• Some nipple soreness can be present at this time but should resolve itself by day 10. Pain that makes breastfeeding intolerable and /or cracked and bleeding nipples are never normal and needs immediate attention from a health professional familiar with breastfeeding management.

1 Week Old:

• Your baby will tend to gain weight steadily as your mature milk supply is established. Once your baby is regularly gaining weight, it is no longer necessary to wake them to breastfeed. Simply follow your baby’s lead.
• Expect your baby to now gain around 4-7 ounces (112-200 grams) per week for their first month.
• At this point your breasts may feel full but soft. You may frequently leak breast milk and begin wearing breastpads. However note that leaking has no relationship to how much milk you’re making.
• Young babies, both breast and formula fed, are often fussy. This fussiness starts at around 1-3 weeks, peaks at around 6-8 weeks and is gone by 3-4 months. "They want to be 'in arms' or at the breast very frequently and fuss even though you attempt to calm them. They often seem 'unsatisfied' with their feedings and even seem to reject or cry at the breast" (Mother to Mother). It is not unusual for fussiness to happen during the late afternoon and evenings, and is usually NOT due to hunger, wet/dirty nappy, or anything that you can remedy. It is usually NOT related to milk supply, although some mothers worry about this.
• By the end of this week your transitional milk will have turned into mature milk which is thinner and contains more water. It consists of 90 percent water and 10 percent of carbohydrates, proteins and fats necessary for both growth and energy. This milk is divided into foremilk and hindmilk. Foremilk is found during the beginning of the feeding and contains water, vitamins, and protein. Hindmilk occurs after the initial release of foremilk and contains higher levels of fat necessary for weight gain.

2 Weeks Old:

• Most babies have regained their original birth weight by this age. If this is the case, the frequency of weighing should reduce. Note that there is no compulsory requirement to get your baby weighed. UK Government guidelines state that weighing can occur "if parents wish, or if there is professional concern" (see here).
• If your baby has yet to regain their birth weight, try not to worry, “it can take up to three weeks” (La Leche League). Encourage your newborn to breastfeed frequently during the day as well as during the night. Also wait until your baby has finished feeding from the first breast before offering the second. This way, you can be sure that your baby is getting to the rich, fatty hindmilk.
• You are likely to also notice your baby’s first growth spurt around this time. This means that your baby will actively return to the breast many times for closely linked ‘cluster’ feedings. Typically, this pattern occurs during the late afternoon or evening hours. Growth spurts generally last 2-3 days, but for a few mothers they can last a week or so. This is normal, healthy behaviour and NOT a sign that you have an inadequate milk supply.
• By now at least one nappy per day should be thoroughly soaked.

3 weeks old:

• You have reached the stage where your baby will probably have a little neck control and a decent latch which makes this the perfect time to practice the lying down breastfeeding position. Once mastered, this position will greatly aid night time feedings as you can snooze whilst your baby helps himself.

1 month old:

• Your baby’s weight will probably start to slow down a little from his previous rapid gain. Expect your baby to gain an average of 1-2 pounds (1/2 to 1 kilogram) per month now until 6 months.
• Your baby will grow in length by about an inch per month (2.5c.m.) until 6 months.
• Also your breastfed baby may not have many dirty nappies now. Some only pass a stool once or twice a week. Other breastfed babies may pass several per day. It depends very much on the individual. Infrequency is not a sign of constipation. Hard, difficult-to-pass stools are. Constipation is very rare in breastfed babies.
• By exclusively breastfeeding for at least 1 month you have given your baby significant protection against food allergy at 3 years of age, and also against respiratory allergy at 17 years of age (Saarinen. UM and Kajosaari. M).

6 weeks:

• Your baby’s second growth spurt will occur around this time.
• At this point you may start to notice that your breasts stop feeling so hard and full before each feed, and stay much softer, but fear not, they are actually producing more and more milk for your growing baby. Don’t assume you’re running out because your breasts are softer between feeds: your body is simply becoming more efficient. It is unfortunate that this change often occurs at the same time as the 6 week growth spurt, which naturally leads mothers to be unnecessarily concerned about their milk supply. 
• It’s common at this point to notice that one breast is producing more milk than the other or is easier for your baby to latch onto.
• Leaking is likely to have diminished or ceased altogether now, although some mothers experience leaking longer than others.
• You may no longer feel your letdown reflex or the feeling may have diminished in strength. Some mothers never feel let-down at all, but they can tell by watching their baby's pattern of suck and swallow when their let-down is occurring.
• It is not recommended that you start expressing until you have had a chance to build up a good milk supply. This usually happens at around 6 weeks. If you decide to start pumping, be aware that pumping only small amounts is not an indicator of a low milk supply.
• Likewise, this is the earliest you should introduce a dummy. However refraining from dummy-use altogether is preferable.
• By now you will have eased your baby through the most critical part of his infancy. Newborns who are not breastfed are much more likely to get sick or be hospitalized, and have many more digestive problems than breastfed babies.

2 months:

• Your baby may now spend less time at each nursing session because he has become more efficient at the breast and therefore requires less time to milk it effectively. He may also only need to nurse one side per feeding, rather than both sides as he may have done before. Always offer the second side but don't worry if your baby doesn't seem to want it or need it.
• At this point, most babies, whether breast or formula-fed still need to feed once or twice during the night.
• From now until 4 months old, your baby should nurse at least 6 times per 24 hour period.
• If you choose to get your baby vaccinated they will have their first vaccination around now. By breastfeeding you are enhancing your baby's antibody response, strengthening the effectiveness of the vaccine (Silfverdal. SA et al). Nursing during the vaccination process will also offer your baby a unique level of pain relief (Tansky.C and Lindberg. CE).

3 months:

• Another growth spurt, hang in there. Don’t be tempted to give formula (or even worse, solids) to appease your baby’s appetite, because a decrease in the frequency of nursing would reduce your milk supply, which is the exact opposite of what your baby is ordering.
• Even after the growth spurt has passed, a baby between three and four months old should be feeding at least every four hours during the day.
• Your breastfed baby will tend to need much less burping now.
• You’ve probably heard the delicious fact that breastfeeding uses up the fat stores you laid down in pregnancy. The greatest weight loss is seen in the three to six month period (Moody et al). You’ve just hit the start of this uber fat-burning period.
• By breastfeeding for at least 3 months you have given your baby a 27 percent reduction in the risk of asthma if you have no family history of asthma and a 40 percent reduction if you have a family history of asthma (Tufts-New England Medical Center Evidence-Based Practice Center).
• By this stage you have also given your baby between a 19 and 27 percent reduction in incidence of childhood Type 1 Diabetes (Tufts-New England Medical Center Evidence-Based Practice Center).

4 months:

• By giving nothing but your breastmilk for the first four months you have given your baby strong protection against ear infections and respiratory tract diseases for a whole year (American Academy of Paediatrics; Tufts-New England Medical Center Evidence-Based Practice Center; Duncan.B et al).
• By breastfeeding for at least 4 months you have reduced your baby’s risk of cot death (Mother & Baby).
• By now you have overcome early obstacles such as engorgement, sore nipples, and marathon cluster feedings. Nursing is becoming so much easier than bottle-feeding.
• Around this time teething may cause your baby to begin drooling, sucking on his fingers, or chewing on objects. This need to suck or chew on things can easily be misread as a sign that your baby is still hungry after a feed and ready to wean. Also, bear in mind that reaching for food is NOT asking for it. Babies reach for everything, and they like to mimic as well, so doing mouth movements also does not indicate a readiness for solids. Likewise, some of your friends, baby food manufacturers and even health professionals may suggest that you introduce solid foods around now. The UK Department of Health, WHO and Unicef all recommend exclusive breastfeeding for the first six months (meaning only breastmilk). This is because your baby’s digestive system is unlikely to be sufficiently developed to cope with solids before then. Also contrary to what some health visitors may contend, starting solid foods before 6 months of age will not increase your baby's caloric intake or provide a health advantage to your baby. Breastmilk has a higher concentration of fat and other essential nutrients than any solid food.
• From now until 7 months old, your baby should nurse at least 5 times per 24 hour period.
• Some babies will want to nurse more often while teething while others may nurse less often, some even refusing to nurse completely, often referred to as a nursing strike. If this happens you will need to pump your breasts frequently to prevent blocked ducts and maintain your supply. A nursing strike will usually last between 2-5 days although can last longer.
• You may notice a further slowing of your baby’s weight gain around now. Between four and six months, breastfed babies tend to gain weight slower than their formula-fed peers, although growth in length and head circumference are similar in both groups (Moody et al).
• Some babies nurse very quickly at this age (3-5 minutes) and may become distracted at the breast, maybe even pulling off the breast after only a few sucks. Feeding in peaceful surroundings can help. Night waking may begin again or become more frequent as your baby tries to make up calories missed during the day (read more about sudden night wakings at 4 months here).

5-6 Months:

• You have greatly reduced your baby’s risk of developing allergies by waiting until at least now to introduce solids, this is particularly the case if you have a family history of allergies.
• Over the next weeks and months, your milk production will adjust as your baby eats more solids and breastfeeds less often.
• At around 6 months your baby will experience another growth spurt. Although you have solids to give, remember to offer the breast first as breastmilk is more nutritious. If your baby has been sleeping through the night you may find that he begins to wake for a midnight feeding during this growth spurt.
• After the first six months, breastfed babies tend to be leaner. Compared to their formula-fed friends, breastfed infants gain an average of one pound less during the first twelve months. The extra weight in formula-fed infants is thought to be due to excess water retention and a different composition of body fat. (Dewey. K). Expect your breastfed baby to gain an average of one pound (1/2 kilogram) per month from six months till he is one year old.
• Your baby will grow around one-half inch per month from six months to one year.
• Keep an eye on your baby's fluid intake during this time. If too many nursings are replaced by solid feedings too quickly, he may not be getting enough fluid which can lead to constipation (evident in small pellet-like stools). Putting your baby to the breast frequently should alleviate the problem.
• A lot of childcare manuals suggest that your baby should have doubled their birth weight by now, but remember that each baby is unique. When evaluating your baby’s overall growth pattern, your baby’s birth weight, length, gestational age, and parental size need to be taken into account. It has been noted that, “by the time they are ready for solids breastfed babies are often gaining less than many of the growth charts say they should” (Lim. P). The complex nature of a harmonious breastfeeding relationship cannot be weighed, measured, or plotted like scientific data on a chart. If you receive overreaction about your baby’s weight from family or health professionals, direct them to this article: ‘Look at the Baby, Not the Scale’.
• By breastfeeding for 6 months you have given your baby significant protection against eczema during their first 3 years (Chandra et al).
• You have also given your baby a 19 percent decrease in risk of childhood acute lymphocytic leukemia and a 15 percent decrease in the risk of acute myelogenous leukemia (Tufts-New England Medical Center Evidence-Based Practice Center).

7-8 months:

• Distraction at the breast may continue. Don't be misled into believing that your baby's temporary lack of interest in breastfeeding is a sign he is ready to wean. It is extremely rare for a child to self-wean before one year of age.
• From now until 12 months old, your baby should nurse at least 4 times per 24 hour period.

9 months:

• You have now seen your baby through the fastest and most important brain and body development of his life on the food that was designed just for him - your milk. You may even notice that he is more alert and more active than babies who did not have the benefit of their mother's milk.
• Some babies display waning interest in the breast around now. This may be due to altered taste brought about by hormonal changes during your menstrual period (if it has returned yet) or a temporary loss of appetite due to a cold or teething. Gentle perseverance is recommended. Try nursing in peaceful surroundings or when your baby is sleepy. If all else fails, pump milk to give to your baby in a cup whilst continuing to offer the breast.

10 months:

• Your baby’s increased mobility through cruising, crawling or shuffling may mean that his nursing patterns become erratic. On some days he may so ‘busy’ that he almost forgets to nurse. On such days, periodically offer your breast even if he does not at first indicate a desire to nurse. On other days, when exploration becomes overwhelming, he may nurse almost constantly.
• Even though your baby is eating solid foods, breastmilk is still the most important part of his diet, and continues to provide him with important immunities at a time when he is crawling around and putting EVERYTHING in his mouth.

1 year:

• Many of the health benefits this year of nursing has given your child will last his entire life. He will have a stronger immune system and will be much less likely to need orthodontia or speech therapy.
• The American Academy of Pediatrics recommends nursing for at least a year, to help ensure normal nutrition and health for your baby.
• As you have been lactating for a year, the fat and energy content of your breastmilk has significantly increased compared with the breastmilk of women who have been lactating for shorter periods (Mandel. D et al).
• Many babies nurse infrequently at this age – only once or twice a day. Others may wish to nurse more often as a form of comfort.
• The fact that most babies can tolerate cow’s milk after one year does not mean that cow’s milk should necessarily replace your breastmilk. Cow's milk does not contain the bioavailable vitamins and antibodies found in breastmilk. Also it is well documented that the later that cow's milk (a common allergen) is introduced into the diet of a baby, the less likelihood there is of allergic reactions (Ponzone. A).
• As a result of receiving your breastmilk for at least a year your child is more likely to display better social adjustment when they begin school (Kneidel. S).

16 months:

• You have continued to provide your baby's normal nutrition and protection against illness at a time when illness is most common in other babies. Your baby will continue to receive those important immune benefits for as long as he continues to nurse.
• Breastfeeding toddlers between 16 and 30 months old have been found to have fewer types and shorter duration of illness and to require less medical care than their non-breastfeeding peers (Gulick. E).
• Some of the immune factors in your breastmilk will increase in concentration during this second year (Goldman. A et al).

2 years+:

• The World Health Organization and UNICEF  strongly encourage global breastfeeding through toddlerhood: “Breastmilk is an important source of energy and protein, and helps to protect against disease during the child's second year of life.”
• Your milk is still providing your child with essential proteins, nutrients antibodies and other protective substances and will continue to do so for as long as you continue nursing. Human biology is geared to a weaning age of between 2 1/2 and 7 years (Dettwyler. K). “It takes between two and six years for a child's immune system to fully mature. Human milk continues to complement and boost the immune system for as long as it is offered” (La Leche League).
• Extensive research on the relationship between cognitive achievement (IQ scores, grades in school) and breastfeeding has shown the greatest gains for those children breastfed the longest (van den Bogaard, C. et al).
• At this age many children form attachments to comfort items. This reliance peaks during their second year (Encyclopaedia of Children's Health; Stringer. K). Examples include rags, toys, dummies and even a bottle, objects that can all be mislaid, forgotten or lost. The beauty of breastfeeding your toddler is that your child's source of comfort is permanently attached to you. Furthermore, nursing does not produce the harmful health consequences  that a dummy or bottle would at this age (e.g. dental malformation, tooth decay, speech delay).

Been a few.

I'm getting closer and closer to my due date. I'm almost 36 weeks along. For the most part, this has been an enjoyable pregnancy. Except for the aches and pains, but you know what, giving life to someone, it's well worth it. I'm finally at a happy and satisfying point in my life. I have the ideal family I always dreamed of, 2 boys a girl, pets, a great home to raise them in, and a wonderful and amazing husband who made it all possible. And now he's even talking about plans of getting a contracting job next month so I don't even have to return to the horrible work place that always puts me in such a bad mood. I truly am blessed.

         I had friends throw me a baby shower a few days ago and I appreciate all the work and time and money they put into it so much.   It truly meant the world to me that they did that for me. I'm happy to have made a new friend that tries to do things with me and give me a life outside of the mommy world.
             My last day of work is the 23rd but I'm hoping it's sooner than that. If this little guy is anything like his big brother and sister, he will be here no later than 2 weeks. Summer is the cutest thing. It just saddens me sometimes that she didn't get to be the baby for very long. But at least I know she is going to be thrilled when he gets here and I know she is going to be an awesome big sister and help out as much as she can. Probably too much, lol. And Alex is excited that he's gonna have another boy to play with. I'm scared, very much so of what it's gonna be like when he gets here and especially if Bryce gets this job working 12 hour days plus motomart, he's gonna be gone a lot and it's gonna be up to me to take care of the three rugrats all on my own. that's the only part I don't like about it. Summer may be able to start head start next year and so that will help out a lot with 2 of them in school.
       Well, I guess I will close this now. Enjoy your happy cheerful blog post from me, they don't come around that often lol.

Baby Update.

I had a pretty good birthday yesterday. Silas is perfectly healthy. He weighs 3 pounds and everything is as good as it should be. The SUA (the umbilical cord issue) turned out to be nothing.  He is transverse though. And I failed my glucose test. I have to go back to Columbia next monday to do not a 3 hour one, but a FOUR hour one. I failed these tests with Summer and they said I was borderline for having gestastional diabetes, so I bet I have it this time. I also asked the doctor if he would schedule a c-sec and he told me no that it was not needed and it would be better if I went the other way. I almost cried. I'm so scared I'm going to die. He said he would schedule an induction after he checks my cervix whenever he does that. I told him I had both my kids 2 weeks early and did not want to be stuck in rolla and have to drive to columbia in labor. So besides the glucose test next week my next appointment is Halloween. I should be 34 weeks then and I'm hoping I get checked so he will schedule the induction date. But apparently my heart is doing well enough he thinks a c-sec is not necessary. Well enough about that.
 After the appointment, Bryce took me out to eat at Longhorn Steakhouse then we headed home and he made me the most amazing dessert ever. I have a pic on my phone whenever I can get around to uploading it. It was chocolate french toast with a layer of strawberries and whipped cream, carmel syrup and chocolate syrup, then another layer of the chocolate french toast which was made of brownies and french toast and another layer of strawberries, whipped cream, syrup and topped with an orange zest.  And then for some TMI,  he gave me the best birthday sex ever, lol. My husband is the best. So I had a pretty good birthday.